Always makes me feel better when I talk to my hubby...

DAY 20-

It drives me crazy when I'm not able to talk to my hubby. He just doesn't understand because he is a man, and he is busy where he is. It is lonely being the only adult around with 3 kids. The only people I'm really able to talk to are on the phone. So, that especially makes me want to hear his voice, even though I do anyways. Well, I got to talk to him for the longest time today, no cut off, yes! 25 minutes 29 seconds, and it will probably be a few days until I hear his voice again. But, at least that was a lot longer then 4 minutes. I was having a rough day today missing him. So that call made me feel a lot better, in which means I can enjoy my oldest sons Birthday tomorrow. Shoot, I better go put up his few decorations so he can see those in the morning. Speaking of my sons birthday, and my hubby, My husband had me wake our oldest up to wish him a Happy Birthday. He probably won't remember in the morning though, poor boy sleeps like a rock!

I went to Bible study this morning. The discussion part of it was great. And then it was over, and everyone split into their little groups of friends and started talking, and guess what, I had no one to talk to. Everybody was to busy with their conversation. So, I left. And I doubt anyone probably noticed. Since I had extra time before Johnathan came off the bus, I ran to get a coffee. It was just one of those blah, not great at all days, and I needed a pick me up. After getting Johnathan from the bus in front of the house, I was really in no mood to do my online classes, but forced myself to work on one. And I really didn't want to clean. Is it so wrong of me to miss my husband? At least in 10 days we can say he has been gone for a month, and then we can say we will see him in 5 months for his R and R. Hopefully things will start going by faster then. For now, they just stink. I'm just sick of having my husband go away on deployments, especially being the 4th one. I wish he was here so we could be a family together, not a family apart.

Tonight was Michael's first soccer game. He missed Saturdays since I was sick. So, it was his first. I felt so bad because I was so miserable in the cold, very windy weather that I could not enjoy his game. The weather was so horrible, something you wouldn't want to be in, let alone for a whole hour. I felt bad, but was ready for his game to be over. I took the camera, but my hands were so frozen, and blue that I could not take any pictures. So, I hope the weather is not so bad on Saturdays game. The sad thing is we were looking forward to it, but it was just a horrible experience.

Well, I can get off here feeling in a better mood then before, It just stinks being separated from my husband. But thankful I was able to hear his voice....