I'm loving being able to see my husband and talk to him on Skype..

DAY 104- (JUNE 29TH, 2010)

Sorry I'm just getting to this blog. I just got done talking to my amazing husband, before someone came knocking on his door, and he had to go to work. He showed me some of his room. His own "little" space to himself, even with a door. I can't even describe in words, how much I love talking to him on skype and being able to see his face. But, only wishing that I could be with him, grab him through the computer and hold him as tight as I can, and then never want to let go.

Again today, the back yard took almost all of our day up. It was so bad, but we are now 75% complete with finishing it. I really hope that It gets done tomorrow. I have some bruises, a few little cuts, arms, legs, shoulders, and a back that hurts. But, I'm glad we are almost done. Well, mainly me. I'm the one that has done the most. Michael has helped some, and Johnathan and Elizabeth are always supervising, a.k.a. playing.

Before we started on the yard, we had to run to Walmart. I needed to pick up a few things, such as bigger yard clippers for my over grown bushes in the back yard. One of them was so big, you couldn't get into the shed. Thankfully that is most of the way cut down now.

I had forgot to mention yesterday, that when I attempted the weed eating (which today most of the yard was weedeated) Elizabeth pulled her chair to close to the edge where the steps are. Next thing I hear, is boom, boom, boom. She fell down the stairs, with the chair, and it landed on her. Thankfully she only came out with scratches on her face, head and shoulder. It could have been worse.

Now I think It is time to head to bed. I'm going to get on Skype again in the morning with the kids, earlier then I would wake up, but I know the kids want to see daddy. I hope nothing comes up with my husband at work. I can't wait to see him yet again, I would rather have him at home with us, but I can't think of that right now, because it is starting to make me cry, and I just can't do that, I have to stay strong. So, until then.. goodnight!

Seeing my Husband on Skype, is such an Amazing thing.....

DAY 103-

I finally got to talk to Josh last night (early morning hours). I was on Facebook for awhile, just hoping he would come on. He wasn't so, I decided to go to bed. After I brushed my teeth, and crawled into bed, I had to check my facebook, just one more time. He was on. I was so happy. I automatically messaged him. I was on my cellphone, upstairs in our bedroom, chatting with him on facebook. Then he suggested to get on Skype to talk over that. So, I went two floors down, to the basement and got on the computer with skype. At first we just talked over skype. Then he was going to have to go. He doesn't like to do the webcam because it is slow. But, since he had to get off soon anyways, I asked him if I could just see him for a couple minutes. So, I got to chat with him on webcam, looking at him as if he were sitting in front of me. And only wishing that I could reach out, touch him, and give him a great big hug and a kiss. That was the first time in 3 months that I was able to see him, besides pictures he puts up. This is bringing tears to my eyes right now thinking of it. I miss him way to much. But, seeing him on webcam made me extremely happy.

Today, we were suppose to have the people were renting from work on our downstairs bathroom. I had scheduled it a month ago, before we left for vacation. They never showed up. I called this morning. They returned my call this afternoon. Apparently their schedule on the computer some how got erased the middle of last month. So, now I have to reschedule.

The kids and I weed eated the back yard today. Well, about 1/4tho of it I would say. We did it by hand. Your probably wondering, why by hand. Well, I borrowed the neighbors electric weed eater, while using it for about 10 minutes, I thought I broke it. I was so worried. I knew that my backyard looked horrible, so I just started weed eating by hand. We would work half hour, then take a half hour break because it was so hot outside. More work to do tomorrow. And thankfully, I didn't break the weed eater, and should be able to use it tomorrow. They were gone all day, but when they came over tonight, it was fixed in two minutes. I felt so relieved, I didn't break it after all. Especially since it wasn't mine.

Now since the kids had their baths, Bible Study time, Prayer time, and now are in bed. And I'm done with my homework, and my arms and shoulders are feeling the pain from working on the yard, It is time to head to bed.

I love you Josh, and I'm thinking about you all the time. Thanks for making my night when I was able to see your handsome face while being able to talk to you. Stay Safe my handsome husband, I'm thinking about you all the time.

Getting through the lonely days....

DAYS 101-102-

It has been 19 days since I have been able to talk on the phone with my husband, because of their phones, being down. And then when he called me, my phones were acting up. This really stinks, and I think it has been the longest after 3 previous deployments. Because of the phones being down, our whole entire, almost a month vacation, I was only able to talk to him 2 times. I cannot wait until he is home again with us, and we don't have to worry about these deployments.

When we were in Washington, it was still hard not hearing his voice, but we were busy every day. With tons of people to see. Now, we are home. It is just the kids and I again, trying to fall back in to our old typical schedule. Doing this brings back memories, and I have more free time. More free time to think how lonely I am without the man I love, and how much I miss him. Thinking about this brings tears to my eyes right now. My husband means a lot to me, and I just wish he was here with us. Here to enjoy our family. Our kids need their dad, and it makes it hard when it's not his choice to be gone, deployed. Especially on his 4th deployment.

Yesterday, what did I do yesterday to make the time without my husband fly by? Hmm, really, I'm going to have to think about this a second. Oh, on day 101, I spent the day unpacking, all three suitcases, and 3 out of 4 carry on bags. Then I cleaned house, and did laundry. I also went through our mail from the past month, it was delivered yesterday. It took me one hour to go through this. Between sorting things, and tearing off our address, then deciding what is to recycle. We managed to pretty much get back on schedule yesterday, and the kids were in bed by 8 p.m, Nice!

Today the kids and I woke up and went to Church for day 102. It was the first time we had gone in a month because of vacation. That was something the kids kept on asking me yesterday, "Are we going to Church tomorrow mommy?" When we arrived back home we ate lunch. Then entire time Elizabeth was suppose to be eating lunch she was worried about her "Father", as of today she no longer calls him daddy, he is father. I have no clue where she came up with this. On the airplane just 2 days ago, he was daddy. And then she was worried about if daddy was going to be home when we arrived home from vacation. I had to explain to her several times, that it is still going to be a few months until she sees him again. Today she was saying, "When is my father coming home, I want my father, my father is not coming home" over and over again. I think she thinks he has left the, even though I explain to her daddy is working, you will see him again, it will just be a few months.

I finished working on my homework for tonight. I had spent 3 hours, between the two classes, after the kids had gone to bed. I put them to bed at 8p.m, after doing Bible Study, and Praying. Now, I think it is time for me to get off. I want to see if I recorded Army Wives for tonight. I hope I did.

Thinking, loving, and really missing my husband tonight. I hope soon that we are able to talk to each other. He means the World to me. It is hard enough that he has to be gone away from us, but not being able to hear his voice makes it even harder. ;

100 Days with out you.. Coming back to Colorado from Washington State

DAY 100- (JUNE 25TH 2010)

It has been 100 days that I have not seen my husband, and 15 days, that I have not been able to hear his voice, because of the phone lines being down. During our about 25 day vacation, I was only able to talk to him 2 times. It makes it quite difficult. But, it wasn't as difficult since we had my mom and dad, and then other friends and family to visit. It made our days go by fast.

Now is different. We are back home. We don't have many people here. The time that I don't get to talk to him is going to seem like forever.

Today, after only 2 hours of sleep, we had to wake up at 3:00 a.m, in order to catch a 6 a.m flight. We were suppose to wake up at 2:30 a.m, but our alarm never went off. Thankfully my mom woke up for no reason at 3 a.m. If she wouldn't have done this, then we wouldn't have woken up, and would have missed our flight. We all then had to get ready and head to the airport.

First it was loading the car. We had 3 big bags, and 4 carry on bags, with 6 people to fit in one SUV. As you can imagine, it didn't go quite well. At 4:15 a.m this morning, when we were suppose to already be at the airport, my dad was attaching one of the big luggage on top of the car. It was just lovely. I was nervous almost the whole trip up, afraid it was going to fall off. Thankfully we made it to the airport safely.

Of course when we arrived at the airport, I was stressed, we were late, and only had 1 hour until the plane left. That is not including time to load the plane. So, we went to get our boarding passes, and check in the suitcases. Of coures, this had to be stress full too. One of the three suitcases were 12lbs over weight. ACK! Seriously??? So, thankfully the lady at the counter saved a suitcase aside to move stuff over. But, that one was only 2lbs below the weight! I was like, do we even have time to do this, (at this point it was of course less then an hour until the plane left) she said we did, and was nice. Well, the other suitcase that was under, and we were trying to move stuff over, the zipper pull broke. And then I couldn't quite get enough over there, to not have to pay the 75 dollars extra for going over. Then I thought, I had a little suitcase of Elizabeth's inside the big one with her clothes packed in it. This was used for our mini vacations. I asked if I could pull that out, and check it it. She said I could. Problem solved. Then I had to just pick up clothes and toss them in the other suitcase which now weighed less.

Then, my dad asked if he could go to the gate with me to help me out. Since I had the three kids. She said it was okay since I was the only adult. Before we went to security check, it was time to say goodbye for now to my mom. That was sad, I hugged my mom, and had to go back and hug her again. I really didn't want to leave. I was sad.

My dad then walked to the security check with us. He must not have heard me when I told him that my laptop was in the bag he had, and I was so busy and stressed, I didn't realize he didn't take it out of the bag. I asked the lady in charge of checking everything if we were good to go, and she said no because of that. It was a pain. Shoes and carry on bags, 2 adults, 3 kids, ack!

We finally arrive at our gate, as everyone was lining up to get on. I went up to the counter to tell them I needed to gate check my stroller, and he said I could line up and get on. That is because I have a child under 5. We were then on our way, out of Washington. It was so sad. Thankfully we had nice people sitting by us. Our seats were, window seat then middle seat, someone on the aisle on both sides, and same thing other side. So, the other adults were patient, and nice with the kids.

We arrived at the hot Denver airport, just enough time to go to the bathroom, and sit for a few minutes. Then they started boarding. Again, since I have one child under 5, we were able to go as one of the first. That is a quick fight, but has lots of turbulence. When we first boarded, up until we were taxing out, Elizabeth would not stop saying, "I'm Stupid, I hate myself, Your Stupid, and I hate you." I was so embarrassed. I tried everything, telling her it hurt my feelings, it was not nice words, etc., etc. This lasted a long while. They guy in front of her wanted to move because she was being so annoying, but he couldn't, we were taxing out, and since it was a short flight, we had to stay in our seats. Finally, I was asking her what she wanted for lunch, and she stopped. I wish I would have thought about that before.

Then when she was in her better mood, she was putting her hands up, and telling me to put my hands up, like it was a roller coaster, and going weeee. And also saying something about,"Yehaw, Cowboy", and telling me to say Yeehaw. She started being silly. Michael ws sitting a couple rows back, by the window. It was not a full flight like the first, and his brother ans sister were picking on him in either of the other seats. Johnathan did good, and only fussed a minute.

When we arrived at our airport we went to get the luggage. Thankfully, all the luggage was all out and we didn't have to wait. This nice lady, who is from out of state, and just was picking someone else up from the airport helped us. She helped pull the 3 big luggage's out. She said she just flew in the other day, and had lots of help by strangers, so she was paying it forward, to help me out. She gave me a hug before she left. Then our ride arrived, and we were on our way to our final destination, HOME!

I like my house, dog, car, etc. But yet, it is still not the place I want to be right now. If Josh was here it would be different, but he is not. And we just don't know many here. When we arrived back at the house we brought our luggage in, then wen to get our dog next door. He looks different, more muscle, and looks a little older. Later on in the day, we had some neighborhood boys looking for Michael. They rang the doorbell, I told my kid's don't answer the door. Guess what, Elizabeth did, and there went Luke. All over our court. I was calling him, he would run. I would try grabbing his collar, he would run. He was starting to run past our court, and further away, when thankfully our neighbor who had just watched him came out. She called him, he came. How embarrassing, I had done that a few times before. But, I was glad she came out to help, or else who knows how far I would have been chasing him.

We also had to go get food tonight at Walmart. My mom had sent chili in a can for lucnh, and potatoes so we could put the chicken noodle that she sent over them. We had no food in the house since we were gone a month, so it was nice she sent those in our suitcase. We arrived home today from our trip at noon, I waited until almost 7 to go get food. That is because since we had flown only 2 hours sleep, we caught up on some after. Well, I only had a two hour nap today. The kids slept for longer.

Since I'm working on a total of only 4 hours sleep today, 2 from 1-3 a.m, then 2 from 1-3 p.m, and it is now 12:39 a.m the next day, I think I need to get off and head to bed. It is sad being back here away from my parents and everyone. I think it will hit us more tomorrow. Even though, I had to stop myself from crying a few times today. The kids need to see me being a strong mom for them, and being the example.

I will be dreaming about Josh tonight, and hearing the sound of his voice. I think this it he longest time ever, out of 3 previous deployments that I have not been able to hear his voice from the phones being out.

So Long Washington...(Saying bye is hard to dooo...)

DAY 99- (JUNE 24TH, 2010)

Today was our last day in Washington before returning to Colorado. I'm so very sad to be returning to our lonely house, without my husband. We have so many people here that are friend, family, and Friends that are like family. I'm going to miss everybody. Especially my parents who have put up with us for a month, every day.

Today in the afternoon, I said bye to one of my friends that I have known since High school. We didn't get to visit for long because we both had things to do. After we took pictures we had to leave.

Then it was time to come back and finish packing, and time for me to do my homework. After we ate dinner, we went and said goodbye to my in laws. After we spent about an hour and a half with them, we took pictures, and it was time to leave.

Then it was off to our friends house, who they are more like family. Our husbands were deployed together for 2 deployments. On the 2nd deployment, when Elizabeth was just a newborn, her 4 kids, and my 2 lived together for 2 months. We had lost touch over the last couple of years, but even just getting re in touch, it feels like we just saw them yesterday. We stayed for about an hour and a half. It was time to say goodbye, after just saying hello today.

It has been 15 days since I have heard my husbands voice. I hope that once we are back in our home in Colorado, I'm able to talk to him again. I miss him. It stinks that the phones have been down for so long.

I should be getting to bed. It is 12:23 right now, I'm suppose to be getting up at 2:30 in order to get ready to be at the airport. Our flight leaves at 6 a.m.

Next time I write my blog, we will be home in Colorado..

It has been great seeing all of our friends, family, and friends that are more like family. I really appreciate my mom and dad putting up with us for the last month. We will miss them. And we will miss all of our friends and family. We have all of our memories that we have made on our vacation to take with us back to Colorado.

Soooo.. Long Washington, Until Next Time.....

Crying from the inside out...

DAY 98- (JUNE 23RD, 2010)

Here it is only 2 wake ups, and we have to return back to Colorado. Tonight was our last night to enjoy here in Washington. Then tomorrow we have to go to bed early, in order to get up early for our flight on Friday. I'm so stinkin' sad, I'm really trying not to cry. I have to stay strong. It is hard enough with my husband being deployed, that now we have to leave friends and family also. It's just not something I want to do, but we really have no choice. Homeward bound, T-1 day!

To top it off, these farewells are not helping me any. Today we saw my best friend Becka. When we moved from our old house we owned for four years, and moved two years ago, she helped me a lot, until we left the house. It had been two years since I had seen my best friend. And today after taking my three kids, and two of her three kids to the park, and grabbing a bite to eat at McDonald's, I had to say goodbye to my friend again. It is so hard to do, not knowing when I will see her again.

Then this afternoon, the kids and I ran some errands with my mom. We went to the bank, Walgreen's, and ran to Bed Bath and Beyond. I also took pictures of my parents old house, old elementary school, and old high school. Our old High School does not even look the same, and that is where my husband and I met. When we arrived back to the house, we dropped my mom off, and ran over to one of my four sisters house's. The kids and I were able to visit with my sister D.D, for a little while. We had a good time. We roasted corn dogs, and marshmallows. And we visited with my sister and brother-in-law Jeff. We ended up coming back to my parents house later then I expected because we lost track of time. When we arrived back we watched a few minutes of the bachlorette with my mom, and had ice cream sandwiches, then she went to bed.

I think I missed a call my husband and that really stinks. It has been 2 weeks since I have been able to talk to my husband. The phones were down. Then tonight when he called my cellphone wasn't working, and didn't ring. My cellphone has been acting up, and must need new updates.

Oh, I'm so sleepy, but I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to be able to say that we are going back home tomorrow. It stinks horribly since My husband is not home and is deployed. I just feel like I'm living a nightmare. First, my husband has to deploy when we move to a new state, not long after we move. Then we have the chance to come back to where were from, and now we have to return back home when he is deployed. All good things have to come to and end, and that means our vacation. We have to leave everybody we know and go back to lonely Colorado. I guess I need to start making plans of things to do to keep the kids and I busy, or else these next few months until he is on his "vacation home" are going to be long, lonely and boring.

Johnathans day out with mommy/ Michael and mommys day out....

DAY 97- (JUNE 22ND, 2010)-

Last night when I got off from facebook, it was so funny. My dad found Johnathans sandles in the garbage. Johnathan had thought his brand new shoes were broken, but they weren't.

It was nice waking up this morning and seeing a very quick clip of my husband doing, a very quick dance move. Instead of just looking at pictures of him, I was able to see a quick video of him and hear his voice at the same time. It has been 13 days since he has been able to call. Between him being busy, and the phone lines being down. At least I have things like that, and messages to keep me going.

Then today, my dad and Michael were headed off to get the car worked on, his car that is. He had to get the carseat out of the other car. When he did that, he found the missing 5 dollars, in which we thought blew out the window. It blew to the very back of the car. They have an SUV, and it has the front seat, middle seats, and two in the back. It was at the very back. That was pretty crazy. It seemed like it flew out of the car. I was starting to feel okay with it going to a homeless person that needed it.

This afternoon I took Johnathan to the play area at the mall. It was Mommys and Johnathans time out and about. I decided I wanted to park at the old retail store I use to work at, before it was closed. It is now something else. I wanted to park at the old spot, where I use to park as an employee. As I was driving, I realized the new store completely closed off the wall, and took away the door. Then it was off to the other side of the building, and I found the third spot in.

I ended up running into three old employees I worked with when the store was something else. It was funny, because in the new store, they were in their old departments as the old store. It brought back memories. It was then time for Johnathan to play for a little while. He ran around, played with the other kids, and flew like an airplane.

Mommy bribed him to leave, by telling him I would buy a shirt for him, a snack, and a drink. We then went to Target and he picked out his own shirt. When we left target he rode on one of the rides that cost 75 cents. And then ate snack, pretzels and a drink.

When we arrived back to the house we went with my mom to pick something up for dinner, and brought it back to the house. Michael and I then left to go see Toy Story 3. That was a cute movie. We saw it in 3-D, with our glasses. And had popcorn and a drink

On the way back to the house, we stopped at another Target and he was able to pick out a shirt. It was nice spending quality time with each of my children alone. I will have to keep this up every so often when we get back home. The kids also liked picking out their own shirts at the store.

It is now time to go to bed before I fall asleep writing this blog. Even though it has been 13 days since I have been able to talk to my husband, we are 13 days more days through this deployment, and 13 days closer to him being home.

Elizabeth and Mommy girl time out and about....

DAY 96- (The first day of Summer, JUNE 21ST, 2010)

Here it is, another day has gone by. I can't believe it has been a day since we have been back from the Ocean. It is another day closer to the 4 of us returing home on Friday. I wish this week would just slow down. I just don't want it to go by fast. I'm not ready to return to Colorado again. It is not like Josh is at the house waiting for us. We still have over 3 months until we can see him again.

Today I just stayed around the house with my parents. The day just went by to fast. Then this afternoon Elizabeth and I were able to spend time togehter. We went to send Josh's care package off. Yes, I know, Finally his Father's day care package was sent off. I feel so bad, but at least it is now in the mail.

Then we went to Walmart to the nail salon. Well, on the way there I had the windows down in the car, it was a little warm. We are slowing down at a stop light, and then all of a sudden something flew out the window. I kept on asking Elizabeth what it was. She didn't say anything at first. Then she told me it was her money. She had 5 dollars. That is what flew out the window. I hope some homeless person finds it and uses it on something they need like food. Because, I turned around to go and try to find it, but I couldn't figure out where to pull the car over. Then, Elizabeth started calling herself, stupid, and that she hates herself. I let her know, hopefully someone that needs it will find it.

When we arrived at Walmart, she told me she didn't want to go there. That is not where you do nails. I explained to her, they have little shops in where they will do her nails. They did. She had her nails painted. I had a spa pedicure, with the chair that does the back massage, and my nails painted with a french manicure.

After we had our nails painted, I let her pick out a shirt. Then I had given her quarters to ride on the rides, or play the video games. She did both and got candy from the quarter machine. Then we came back to my parents house.

Tonight we watched the movie Lovely Bones, it was a very interesting movie. I don't think I really liked it, yes, it was sad, but, not very good.

I'm so tired right now, it is time to go to bed. Even though, I really don't want to. Then it will be another day down, only 4 wake ups, and we have to head home, to our lonely house.

Missing, loving, and thinking of my husband. It has been 12 days since I have been able to talk to him on the phone, since the phones have been down, and he has been busy working. Thankfully I have been able to talk to him on FaceBook chat a couple of times, and he sent a very nice e-card last week. I cannot wait to hear his voice again.

Happy (Belated) Fathers's Day to my Dad, and my Husband Josh!!!

DAY 95- (JUNE 20TH 2010)

I know, I'm a little behind writing this post. Last night I was planning on writing it once I got the kids to bed. When I was putting my younger two to bed, I was laying on the bed with them, in between them so they wouldn't fight. Then I fell asleep, and woke up just for a few minutes to tell my dad goodnight.

Yesterday was our traveling day coming back from the Oregon Coast. It was sad leaving the Ocean behind, not knowing when I will see it again. In Colorado, we live no where near the ocean. I had enjoyed waking up to the ocean view, drinking my coffee every morning. And every night and falling asleep to the sound of the ocean waves. Ahh, I miss it already!

We were fortunate enough to spend Father's Day with my Dad yesterday. I don't remember the last time that we were able to Spend a Father's Day with him. A couple years, at least. The sad thing was, my husband Josh was not able to be with our 3 children this year. We missed him this year. I was able to send him an E-card that I got the notification, he was able to read it. He will be able to be here next Father's Day. We have that to look forward to. This year we have already made it through, all 3 of the kids birthdays, Mothers Day, and Father's day, we still have a lot more Holidays to get through. And this year, all of the Holidays, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas, I have to do alone with the three kids. Just the 4 of us. But, we will have next year to look forward to, when it will be the family, of 5.

My poor dad spend the day driving from the Oregon Coast, to their home in Washington. We stopped for lunch at a place called Burgerville and had lunch. After lunch, we continue the trip back. I think it ended up being a 5 hour trip. With me sitting in between the younger two kids, of course. So they wouldn't fight. We arrived at my parents house around 6 something at night. We then unloaded the car and brought everything into the house. We then were like, "What are we going to have for dinner?" Since we were gone a week, we didn't really have any food here for dinner. We decided for Father's Day, we would go have Chinese Food.

My kids were having such bad behavior, it was embarrassing. When we get back to Colorado, I think I will just stay home all the time. I'm sick of their bad behavior, all the time. Not just at the house, in public too.

I hope that the time, after our Vacation here, goes by fast. The only reason we are in Colorado is for my husband Josh, and he is deployed. I think about him all the time, and cannot wait to see him.

I just want to end this post wishing my Dad and Josh,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

We hope you two had a great day!

Our last day/night at the Oregon Coast...

DAY 94-(JUNE 19TH 2010)

This is our last day/night at the Oregon Coast today. I'm sad that vacation is over, and I hope this next week doesn't go by to fast. I'm not ready to return home yet.

Todays first mission was to find a post office to send Josh's Father's day care package. Well, here the post offices are closed on Saturday. Mission Failed. We tried. I have been such a horrible wife when it comes to this. It has been on my mind, but we have been busy, and it has been hard making him a Father's day care package since we can't be with him. I hope he likes it though, once it is able to be sent.

We then went to the Artic Circle to get something for lunch. We were trying to get an earlier start today in order to send his care package. Then it was to head to the beach. Before the kids went to play on the beach, I ran up to one of the little shops. I had seen a dress in the window that I thought I might like. I ended up not, so then the kids were finally able to play on the beach.

Today was a better day for them to play in the sand. Not nearly as windy as the other day. I played with them for a couple minutes. I even wrote, "I heart U Josh" in the sand, and had my dad take a picture. It was a beautiful day outside today. The kids really enjoyed being able to play in the sand.

Then it was time to do some more shopping. We went back to the Depoe Bay shops today to shop.I love to look at he different shops, and see all of the unique things. Of course I bought a few things to. Today I was walking around on an injured foot from twisting it the other day. It was not feeling great at all.

When we arrived back at the condo, we at dinner. And on our final night, we finally used the pool. We went to one pool, and the kids and my dad were in the pool, I was just a couple steps into it. They were playing for a few minutes and I was standing watching Johnathan. All of a sudden one of the kids got sick in the pool so everyone got out. Well, I asked the lady that was with him if he got sick in the pool she said yes, and I told my dad the kids needed out. Then everyone else just followed. We walked to the next pool that was down the parking lot a little bit. My dad and the kids were already in wet bathing suits as we were walking outside. Thankfully it wasn't to cold. Then we let the kids play in the kids pool. Johnathan loved walking around because it was just his size. The other two were "swimming" in it. I was sitting there the entire time freezing cold. And my dad was in the pool watching them while my mom was at the side of the pool watching because she doesnt swim with us.The kids really enjoyed it.

When we were done and came back on the little walk back to the room in wet bathing suits, the room key wouldn't work. It was awful, because it was cold outside. I decided, since it was so cold, that I would run down to the office to get help. Now remember, I don't run, I have an injured ankle,I'm in my bikini swimsuit, with shorts on, and a towel on me, running! in flip flops that is. It was wonderful. I didn't have the key on me because I was going to have someone come help us at the room. I got to the office, usually you would have to show your i.d, or room key to get a replacement. I told her what was going on, so she gave me another key. I told her my parents name of course. Then I ran back to the room, on my injured foot.

Well, guess what, after all of that, my parents saw a matinance guy on a golf cart and got his help. I wasted running on my hurt foot for nothing. It was wonderful, but now it is taken care of.

We then had ice cream on cones, after they had baths, and they went to bed. Tonight in my bath I was getting sad because it is realization that our vacation is coming to an end. We only have a few short days left with family and friends. Then we are heading back to lonely Colorado, where we hardly know anyone. The main reason we are there is Josh, and he is deployed. It just makes me want to cry thingking about it. In fact I did start, and stopped myself. I have to stay strong, I have to stay positive. I will have to find Farmers Markets, Parks, and Splash Parks to keep us busy. This will hopefully stop me from being reminded of the lonlieness.

I haven't been able to talk to Josh in 10 days. He said all of the phones have been down for a few days. It stinks. But, I have talked to him a few times on facebook chat in between those times. So, it is something I am hearing from him. Then, he sent me a very nice e-card the other day. I was finally able to read it today since Im still having problems with my yahoo account. I made a new account with someone else, and he gave me the link. That card made my day. Any time I'm sad and missing him, I will look back at the very sweet card he sent me. I love and miss him soo.. much!!!!

My husband has been deployed 3 months...

DAY 93- (June 18th, 2010)

It has been 3 months since I have last seen my husband and been able to hug him, and hold him in my arms. It is a sad thing when I think of not being able to even touch my husband or be near him for this long. We are only to the halfway point, about, give or take a little, until he is "on his vacation home". I still have the last memory with him of walking into the building, the last picture of the day he deployed, that I took. I miss him a lot that no words could even explain. I cannot wait to see him again.

Today was a good day, besides like always, missing my husband. It was another day I was able to spend with my amazing parents, and wonderful (at times) children. Today we started off by going to the Flying Dutchman Winery, here by the waters of the Oregon Coast. It is a small business that is here in the Oregon Coast, and made here in Oregon. I'm going to try and fly home with a bottle in my suitcase, that I check in, when I fly home the end of next week. It is for when Josh comes home on his "vacation home", to sit down and have together. I can envision it now, candlelight, music, and wine. Maybe even a movie. I cannot wait to just spend time with my husband.

My dad and I were also able to taste test two different wines. They were good. I was surprised I was not carded to try these wines. Usually, I'm always given a hard time when it comes to alcohol, and being told I don't look old enough. Here I am, in the State that I was born, in which they don't card me to drink samples of alcohol, that same thing happened the other day with beer. Good thing I definitely over 21! They were both good wines I tried though, then we bought a bottle and moved onto our next spot.

We then went and bought Johnathan more sandals. He had broken his at the playground the other day, and has been wearing tennis shoes. My dad and I ran into the store to get him "Car's" sandals. We then ran into Rite-Aid for a few things.

After leaving Rite-Aid we went through the car wash, because of all the, let's just say, bird mess on the car. It was like a living nightmare for me after seeing a scary movie before Josh had left. Thanks hun, :) Car washes are no longer the same for me, after that movie.

It was then time to eat a late lunch.It was also time to Celebrate our 3 month mark of Josh being deployed. And yet, we are another month closer to him coming "on his vacation home", and a month closer to this year long deployment ending. We went to a place in the the little Pirate shopping center that we went to yesterday, it was named something like "Fish Bait". It was very interesting inside. They had all different kinds of dinner tables that you could sit at. Then all of their cloth napkins, plates, and forks were different. It was all very unique, and I thought it was kind of neat. I ordered a fish fritter thing. Not what I expected I guess, but it ended up being very good. The waitress was a little slow since it was a smaller restaurant, and they had a sick call to make the waitress, also assist in the cooking. But, the food was worth it.

Then the kids and I walked to the shopping area, and my parents drove. They wanted to look at something they saw yesterday. Come to find out, the shop is closed for 2 weeks, while the owner goes on an Alaskan cruise, lovely, and interesting!

When we left here we went to some other shops in Newport. My mom and I went in a kitchen shop, and we bought a decorative cutting bored that has the coffee theme on it. My theme in my kitchen. And we found an adorable apron for Elizabeth that says "Diva in Training", we of course bought that too. We looked in a few other shops then left.

On the way back to the condo, we stopped and looked at some shops in the area that we are staying, Depoe Bay. Of course we picked up a few things, and then came back to the condo.

Tonight I finally was able to finish putting Josh's Fathers day care package together. I know, it is awful how late it is. But it doesn't mean we don't love him, because we do. He will just have his own special Fathers day. Hopefully that will be sent tomorrow.

The kids and I took a walk with my dad around the condo area before putting them to bed. I was able to do some of my assignments today, which is always good.

I cannot believe 3 months have gone by without my husband by my side. It stinks horribly. But yet, it feels like he has been gone longer. It is awful thinking, that amount of time since he has left, we still have that same amount of time until we can see him again. I'm anxiously awaiting, and dreaming of the day, I can see my husband in the airport and be able to give him a big huge hug, and a kiss.

My husband started my day out great, :)

DAY 92-

I was able to talk to my husband today on Facebook chat for awhile. It always makes my day "hearing" something from him. I always feel like a teenager who has a "crush" on someone, or a new couple that are dating, and they wait by the phone to talk. I just feel so good inside. Happy, and excited. I love my husband so much!! He is always busy on the road with his job, so it is not very often that we have any communication, so when I hear from him, it means A LOT to me.

This good feeling carried on the rest of the day. Today we stopped at a gift shop sitting on a hill above the water. It has pretty views of the ocean. The only thing I bought, a post card, of course for my husband.

Then we headed off to a really cool pirate gift shop area. It was an area with different buildings and the theme was of pirates. You could take pictures with pirates made out of wood, or stick your head through a hole and pretend your a mermaid. We went to the shops and bought a few things. The thing I bought, that I couldn't pass up, even though it is a little big for my kids is a shirt. It said, "While daddy's out fighting terrorists.. I'm terrorizing my Mommy!!!" I thought this was so funny, and sooo.. true for my 3 children. It was only 5 dollars, and I plan on getting a picture of all the kids in the shirt. Of course taking turns.

When we left his area we went to Artic Circle to get milkshakes. I don't remember the last time I had a milkshake. They had TONS of choices, almost to many to choose from. I had an banana chocolate shake. It was sooo... good. Then the kids had a birthday cake shake, and my parents had a strawberry cheesecake shake. If you are wanting a shake, this is the place to go. Not only a lot of choices, but they are all very delicious!

When we arrived back at the condo we stuck a lasagne in the oven, it was going to take an hour. My mom went to take a nap, and my dad took the older two children on a walk. I took my youngest on a little walk and up to the gift shop. I found a pink bag I absolutely fell in love with . I had to have it. But. I didn't have any cash on hand. So, a few minutes after arriving back to our Condo, I walked with Johnathan and Elizabeth back to get this bag. With my luck, it was on sale. Regular 15.00 dollars, on sale for 10. I love it, so cute! When the three of us walked back from the gift shop, Johnathan and Elizabeth were both throwing temper tantrums. It was so embarrassing with all of the people around. I had to gently pull Elizabeth by her hand, or gently push her to the condo. She wouldn't move. I was frustrated. Thankfully, Johnathan was running and crying at the same time. She saw the pool, and being the water baby she is, she wanted to swim. Johnathon wanted a bag that was smaller then mine. He had looked to the bottom of the pile and found the blue ones, and wanted that.

When we got back we ate a nice dinner of lasagna, bread, and salad. The kids are now sleeping, and now I'm off to bed.

Well, I forgot to mention I'm having problems with my yahoo account. It was hacked into and now it won't let me change my password. The test questions, in which I know, they say they are wrong answers. The questions are like who my spouse is, and where I met him, hmm, I obviously know those. Such a pain. And my husband sent me an E-Card, now I'm so frustrated that I cannot see this. I want to see what he wrote. Btw, my husband also sent me a text through yahoo to my cellphone letting me know he wasn't going to be able and call me today because of the phones being down. I thought that was nice of him. I received that message after he had already asked me if I got it, and he just signed off from facebook. Lovely, it was late, but still nice to see. My husband means a lot to me, and I love and miss him soo.. much!

The long road of life..

DAY 91

When we are babies, and young children we didn't know what our life was going to be like. We didn't know what job we would do, where we would live, who we would marry, or how many children we would have.

This is all in our long road of life, there are twists, and there are turns, but our road of life will lead us on our very own unique path, and sometimes it may be hard, but those tough times will make us stronger, and will make us appreciate the good times.

Our families path has taken us through 3 prior deployments, and now on our 4th. Our path of life has definitely not been easy. There have been lots of twists and lots of turns being separated from my husband. It has been very difficult being separated from the man I love, and hardly being able to talk to him, but once a week. It is truly hard keeping a marriage going when your not able to talk, but the love I have for my husband is all worth it in the end. I miss him a lot. And I have the next few months to look forward to when I can give him a huge hug, and even a kiss too... I hope after the many twists and turns of prior deployments, and with him being on his current one, that our path on this road of life will be able to straighten out, and he will be able to be home with us for awhile.

I cannot wait for him to be home for longer then a year and we can enjoy being a family. Instead of just getting use to being a family with all of us again, and then having to leave again. I cannot wait to do things such as camping, hikes, day trips, playing games, and just spending quality time together. Simple things in life, I miss spending them with my husband.

It makes me sad when I see other moms and dads together with their children. I wish he was home with us. One day, that will be our family, and we will not have to worry about deployments again. For now, this is just a dream, and I will stand beside my husband, supporting him while he is deployed.

Today, we went for a drive with my parents and the kids. It was nice seeing scenery. The drive took a little while, and then on the way back we stopped and got crab in one of the little towns. My dad and I went and got it. Then we stopped at Safeway on the way back, so my parents and the older two kids could run in.

When we got back to the condo, we ate dinner and then my dad and I ate our crab. It was pretty good, but I was done after two legs. Trying to get the crab meat out the leg can be a little difficult at times. I was done after two, when I felt I had enough crab meat to eat, and was tired of taking them apart.

Now that the kids are sleeping, I think it is time for me to get to bed too. I'm missing my husband tonight, I haven't been able to talk to him since last Wednesday. He is always on my mind and in my heart, I love and miss him sooo.. much, and I cannot wait to see him again in a few months.

Bouncing off the walls...

DAY 90- (3 months really isn't until the 18th)

Today was my parents 32nd Anniversary. Happy Anniversary mom and dad, thanks for having us on your vacation.

I wasn't feeling to well half of the day. Not really well at all. But, thankfully the kids behavior was not as bad today. There were some things, but thankfully they got over them as fast as they started.

We went and had pizza for my parents Anniversary dinner tonight. Then we came back to the house. When Johnathan was heading to bed he was walking backwards, as he turned, he turned right into the wall and now has a bump on his head. Poor little one. I first just picked him up because it looked like he backed into the wall. Then I went and sat in the bedroom and I looked and saw the big bump on his head. I picked him up, brought him to the front room, and my dad got him some ice. He seems to be okay now. He will just have a nice bruise on his head.

I will miss the sound of the ocean when we leave here. It is nice hearing the ocean as I'm typing this. I think I will have to buy a c.d or something with the ocean on it to relax. Speaking about oceans, tonight we saw a helicopter and a boat from the Coast Guard that they must have been practicing or something. The helicopter was about 50 feet above the boat, and followed the boat to who knows where. It was neat to see though.

Tonight I also talked to Josh for a little bit on facebook chat. He kept on getting kicked off though, so it was briefly. Just enough to know he is doing okay. I think it is time to head to bed now, I am getting very tired. I need to get my rest to start my day all over again tomorrow. Goodnight!

I love looking at the Ocean from inside...

DAY 89-

Today was the day that we took the kids down to the ocean to play in the sand. After my mom and I made lunch, and then we all ate, we got in the car and went to the beach. The kids were so excited to go play in the sand today.

It took a few minutes to get to the beach. The condo we are staying at is not sitting on the beach. When we got to the beach we were only there for a few minutes. It was soooo... cold, and soooo... windy. That is why the kids were only able to play for a few minutes. Just enough time to dig in the sand, and use the Frisbees (when those were not blowing away) to put sand on. My dad was taking pictures, and my mom had already headed to the car because it was to cold. Then I decided it was time to leave. I was starting to get an earache. It was really disappointing because of the weather. Something we were looking forward to doing,(yes mommy too, I was planning on helping them build sandcastles, or something) and then the cold wind made it where we couldn't enjoy it. I guess that is why I love looking at the Ocean from the warm inside. With a drink in hand and enjoying the view from the window. That way I don't have to feel to feel the cold wind.

After we left we had to stop at a mini mart in order to get some water. My parents ran in. I had to take Tylenol because I wasn't feeling the greatest from developing an ear ache. We then went for a drive.

The kids ended up playing at a really neat park that my mom had found on google. It was made all of wood. It was also like a maze, with an area to sit. You would also go up and down stairs to different play houses, and then to different slides and such. The kids had fun. I had fun following Elizabeth around, she would say, "follow me mommy". I didn't want to loose her, so I followed her. My dad stayed with Johnathan, and Michael was so loud, you could here him anywhere. He was playing with the other older kids.

After we got back to the condo, it was dinner time, bath time, and bed time. The kids behavior wasn't as bad today. But, Michael still ended up going to bed just a little earlier for not listening. I haven't been as stressed out today though, as I have on other days of this trip.

It has been a few days since I have heard my husbands voice. If I try to think about this to much (anytime that he is not able to call for a few days) it starts to get to me a little. I just try and keep busy. This time I have my parents to spend time with, and of course, like always, my three young ones. I cannot wait to hear his voice again. I love my husband soo.. much, he means a lot to me, and I'm so proud of him. Not only what he does for helping to fight for our Country, but being the Amazing Husband and Father he is. Thinking about him, and loving him all the time...

Waking up to a beautiful Ocean View...

DAY 88-

I have always loved being at the ocean. It is so relaxing to me. Even though the blinds are closed right now, I can hear the waves outside, as I'm writing this blog, and before that, doing my homework. It was so nice today to wake up and see the beautiful ocean today. It reminded me, Were on vacation. (with in our vacation home)

I love just being away from everything, having a break from the world. Looking at the ocean and forgetting how hard life really is right now. How hard it is to raise three kids on my own while my husband is deployed, and the worries I carry within myself of being worried about his safety. For a minute, when I look at the ocean waves, those worries are washed away to sea. But then, I look away, and reality hits. Even though we are here with my parents, I look past that and see (or most likely hear) one, two, or even all three of my kids acting up.

I know it is hard for their daddy to be gone away from them, and truly not understand where he is, or what he is doing, and why he is not able to be here with them. But, I know, and their behavior is not helping me any. It doesn't help me when I see other couples, or other families that have their dad with them. It doesn't help me when I look out across the Ocean and wonder how far away my husband really is from me (of course I know he is not across this ocean, but still), and hope that he remains safe, it does not help me at all.

When I was a little girl I always tried to be good. So, that makes it tough on me when I have three children that just don't want to listen. Then again, I don't know personally, what it is like to be a child and have my daddy away from me for a year, and not know why.

I'm truly trying to take this into consideration, but an every day thing of temper tantrums, yelling, screaming, rolling eyes, etc., etc., etc., quite a few times a day is not helping me any. That is when it is time to Pray, and ask for Patience, and Guidance. And really, that is all I can do.

Today was a good day, we ate at the Artic Circle, in the car by the Ocean. It was a very windy day today. Then my mom, Elizabeth and I ran into Walmart to buy a few things. On the way back to our condo, my parents stopped at the grocery store and ran in. Of course, in between, the kids were doing their usual bad behavior.

Tonight we had a very good dinner, steaks, corn on the cob, salad, cottage cheese, and Johnathan had macaroni salad and loved it, He kept on getting more. (I'm only listing this food only because I assume my husband is not reading this blog, if he is, he can let me know otherwise, and I won't list food anymore, :) )

My dad and I took the kids out the playground a little while after dinner. We didn't stay to long because of the wind. When we got back it was time to put the kids to bed.

When we were out today, My handsome husband left me a nice Message on my facebook today that made my day. Even though it was a quick note, it meant a lot to me to read something from him. It was nice to receive that from him since I'm only able to talk to him once a week, usually every 5-7 days. I hope these next 3 and something months go by fast so that I can put my arms around him tightly, and hold on to him. I can only dream of this moment for now, and hope the time until then goes by fast.

We are at the Oregon Coast...

DAY 87-

After 4 and a half hours of driving today we are at the Oregon Coast with my parents, and then the three kids. On the way here I had to sit in between Elizabeth and Johnathan in the backseat. It was either feeling a little un comfortable, or hearing, and seeing the two fight the entire time. I chose being uncomfortable (actually it wasn't so bad, it was just having to crawl over either of them to get to my seat). Michael was in the way back, next to all of the luggage.

When we arrived here, after searching and searching for a place to eat, because there aren't many, and the places that are here to eat,most of them were closed. It was interesting. After sitting down at the table, the waitress came back with a shot glass of a sampler beer. I think this is the first time that someone has truly notice, I am an adult and not a teenager, she sat one in front of me too. I had to kind of laugh to myself. Seems like any time I go out to buy beer or something, usually for Josh when he is here, I have to show my I.d to prove I'm and adult and not a teenager.

Shortly after that they got on the loud speaker, we had no clue what we were getting ourselves into. Come to find out it was a trivia game. You played to put a ticket into a drawing for discounts on your meal. Then ended up allowing one per person per table who played. And then picked several from this. We ended up getting 4 dollars off our meal, because the prize that they were giving out was $1 off per ticket. We had 4 winning tickets. My mom and dad were playing this game.

I wasn't playing the game because one of my lovlies decided to get on the ground and throw a temper tantrum. I ended up having to carry her to the car. Yes, her. It was my daughter. I took her to her booster seat, and I sat in the front seat. She was throwing stuff, kicking, and screaming at the top of her lungs. Oh my it was horrible. Glad that I don't have to deal with that right now, all three are in bed. Finally!

It was also different today when we went to the store so my dad and the two older kids could go in, when we pulled up we heard lots of sirens. We looked up and saw a firetruck, then a bus, then another emergency vehicle, and then another bus, and then more emergencie vehicles. The emergency vehicles all had sirens and lights on, and the bus had screaming students (I assume) hanging out the window. Then a few cars with also screaming people, or yelling, whatever you want to call it. I also assumed, this was maybe a tradition for Graduates at the Coast. Not really sure, and don't know if we will ever find out, but it was definately different.

It has been a long day of traveling, and then having to do homework once we arrived here at the condo. I'm going to try and enjoy this vacation as much as possible. I really hope it doesn't go by to fast. Once this vacation is over, we have only 3 days left in Washington, then we are flying back to lonely Colorado.

As were on vacation at the Coast though, I will be still thinking of my husband and counting down the days until I can see him again in the next few months.

The days are flying by...

DAY 86-

As much as I truly love seeing all of our friends and family, and being able to see people that we have not been able to see in two years, my kids are also making this trip difficult. Their behavior has been bad. It hasn't helped not being able to put them in their beds. I thought this would give me a break. But, it has added lots more stress to my day. At home I deal with them not listening, but not only is their behavior worse, I can't just stick them into their room. Ack, it is just so stressful. I wish they would just put on their best behavior, instead of their worse. Sometimes I just don't know what to do.

I just can't believe how fast these days are still going by. It seems like I wake up, do a few things, then it's time to go right back to bed, and do it all over again. Even though my kids are not at all listening, and not even close to trying to be good, I'm not quite ready to return to lonely Colorado.

Today during this fast day, the kids and I were at the house while my parents went to Dr.'s appt. then ran some errands. Then tonight we ran to the Mall to buy a few things. We also stopped by the Church Josh and I were Married at, and my dad took a picture of me in front of the Church. That was basically how our day went. And it went by fast.

Well, it is late, and I'm getting very sleepy. I think it is time for me to go to sleep and dream about my handsome husband.

Today would have been the day we were returning to Colorado...

DAY 85-

If the cancellation of our flight 2 weeks ago would have never happened, today we would be heading home, (June 10th). Instead we are here until the 25th of June. Our time here still feels like it is going by really fast. I hope these next 15 days slows down, just a little bit, at least.

We were able to meet my nieces baby boy today. He was born the day we flew out from Colorado to Washington, on May 29th. We also got to visit a little bit with my sister and niece. My kids were acting up horribly, and very embarrassing so we did not get to stay long. Just long enough for some pictures. In which, my oldest was refusing to take for awhile. He was sure a cutie though, so tiny. And their house is a very nice house. My niece doesn't even look like she just had a baby almost 2 weeks ago.

After that we stopped and got Mexican food for lunch. We ordered Johnathan a taco but he would not eat it. He then sat in the middle of the booth, looked at my food, and then looked at my moms. He was deciding who had the best food. He decided it was my mom who had the best food. So, he went to sit by my mom, and stole half of her food. He doesn't usually even like Mexican food, so this was highly unusual. I don't even know what she had. Then it was time to come back to the house so that my dad could go to work.

Tonight the kids and I went to have spaghetti at my in laws house.My mother in law also made homemade brownies. The kids were able to play with their dads and Uncles old toys. Grandma had saved them. We had a great time, the only thing that was missing, was my husband. At their house also, Johnathan was playing with a toy that was singing and danced. He sat it on the floor and then kicked it down. His daddy would have been proud of him.

When we came back to the house we took a drive by my parents old house (the one I lived in from the time I was about 2 and a half, until after I was married and moved out of the house at 19) They had moved to a new house after our family moved out of State. Then we drove by our old house in which we lived in for 4 years. It is sad seeing them both, it brings back a lot of old memories. We then went to the bank, and I ran into Walmart. We arrived back to the house after 10 p.m.

Since this has been really the first visit since we moved out of state 2 years ago, it has felt a little weird. Last time we were really here, we lived in the area. I would be in my "old house", and my parents their old house. It has felt strange not returning to these places, and a little sad. We only have 15 days left until we are returning home to our house in another state, and leaving this place we know, and the friends and family we love. Until then, slow down vacation!! We still don't know many people where we live now. Not looking forward to not having much going on for the next 9 months about, when the deployment ends.

Thinking of, missing, and loving my husband tonight, I cannot wait for these next few months to go by so I can see the man that stole my heart, just a few miles from where I'm at, almost 10 years ago!!!

What a Wonderful Wake Up Call........

DAY 84-

This morning I had a wonderful wake up call, my husband called us at 6:39 a.m. The two older kids and I were able to talk to him. We were able to talk to him for about a half an hour. It made my day hearing my husbands voice.

Then today the kids and I just hung out with my parents and enjoyed time with them. It is always great spending time with my parents.

After dinner, around 5 something we met up with a friend of mine and hung out with her. We visited with her and her parents, and then we went to McDonald's to have an ice cream treat, and let the kids burn some energy by playing. Then we ran into Safeway so I could run in and get some groceries.

We then dropped my friend off and the kids and I came home. Today was another good day. Except for these days are still going by way to fast. Here it is another night, another end to a day, and another day closer to us returning back home.

Enjoying every last second here..

DAY 82 to 83-

We still have a little over 2 and half weeks left here, but yet if feels like our time with our friends and family is going by to fast. We leave this coming Saturday to head to the Oregon Coast for about 9 days, leaving Washington State again. So, it gives us less time to spend with friends and family around here. But, yet exciting for another vacation in a vacation. I just know this week we only have 3 days, and then about 2 and a half days to spend with those in Washington. We will be able to enjoy the time with my parents in Oregon though.

I will be happy to see my dog, and be in my house. But, I will be sad to leave friends and family here. We have noting planned on the calendar until Josh comes home on leave, still a ways away. And not many people to hang out with at home. I hope this time here slows down, because we are not in a hurry to return back home.

Yesterday the kids and I just spent time with my parents. I made lunch, dinner for lunch since my dad works nights. And then lunch for dinner. For dinner lunch, I made Curry. One of my favorite meals. My parents had not ate it in a long time. Thankfully it turned out well. Then I cleaned the kitchen and relaxed.

Today the kids and I relaxed a little while this morning with my parents. Then after lunch we headed out to my best friend Becka's house to hang out with her kids and husband. Her husband Barbecued hamburgers for use, and then Becca made fries. I also was able to hold her 5 month old baby again today.

On the way home from their house we almost hit a deer as I was driving. Thankfully we didn't. Thankfully I was going a little under the speed limit because all of the curves. They live about a half hour out, in which I just like to call the middle of nowhere. Cute town, the drive is just so long. Anyways, since I was going a little under the speed limit, and he stopped for a second. I didn't hit him. Then I Was afraid the car behind me would rear end me. Thankfully that didn't happen either. I was wondering in that quick thought, would I rather hit the deer, or get rear ended? Thankfully neither happened, both were close though. He then crossed in front of me and went on his little way.

I haven't been able to talk to Josh since last Thursday night when we were on our way home from Grants Pass. He usually calls every 5-7 days. So, probably with in the next couple of days I will be able to hear his voice again. Until then I will just continue thinking of him, and and missing him. I cannot wait until the day he comes home on R and R and I can hold him in my arms again.

Spending our days with friends and family...

DAY 80-81,

Sorry I haven't been blogging every day being in Washington. I have been very busy. We have had lots of people to see, then balancing this with spending time with my parents, and keeping up with my online classes.

Yesterday, I picked Michael up from my in-laws house and brought him back to my parents house. Then he went and spent time with my dad. Since he is the big brother, it was time for him to get some away time with Grandpa. After they came back home the kids and I all went to eat dinner with my in-laws. The kids played with grandma and grandpa. Michael even has this car that he pedals with his feet as he sits down. Josh's mom actually had a race with him as she ran. She won, but got disqualified at the end for accidentally knocking over her granddaughter (Elizabeth). It was so funny, and neat to see. I didn't think she would but she did. It was great. We had a great dinner. By the end of the night for some reason I wasn't feeling well. We were headed to go, and let's just say, I got sick in the restroom. Boy that was embarrassing getting sick at my in-laws house. Thankfully I feel better, and felt better after I went to sleep. Michael spent the night again, and then the three of us came home.

Today Michael went to Church with my In-laws. And then they dropped him off at my parents house. Later on, we went out to my friends daughters 5th Birthday party. We only stayed a little while. She had a lot of friends at her birthday party.

Tonight I watched Dear John with my parents. That is a good movie. It made me sad though, and made me miss my husband even more. I didn't like the end though. The only other thing I did tonight was work on my assignments for school. That took awhile.

I did get to talk to Josh on facebook for a few minutes, but he had to get off and go to lovely work. I love him so much, I cannot wait for R and R to see him again.

Seeing friends and family after 2 years....

DAY 79- (Really June 4th, 2010)

Wow, I'm tired! This has been a busy week. Seeing lots of friends and family that we have not see in 2 years, since we last lived here.

We arrived back in Washington yesterday after spending a few days in Oregon. When we left Grants Pass, we had pictures taken by the Caveman Statue. In Grants Pass, they are known as the Caveman town.

We then hit the road and headed back. On the way back we stopped and ate Sundaes at McDonald's with my Aunt Karen (dad's sister), and Uncle Al. It was great to be able to visit with them on the way back. (I will try and post pictures in the next few days, I don't have them downloaded on my computer yet).

We then arrived at the house around 11 p.m, after stopping to eat dinner about an hour away from here. We also drove by our old house in which we lived at for 4 years. It was the house that Elizabeth and Johnathan came home to when they were born. It was sad seeing it again. Coming home on the entire trip, I felt that they were suppose to be dropping us off at the house when we got back to Washington. Last trip we made just like this one, they took us to "our home". This time was just a drive by. When we turned around to show Michael the house, we noticed it was for sale. It is a sad thing. We lived in the house for 4 years, but they guy that bought after us foreclosed, after only about 6 months of living in it. Finally after maybe a year of being empty, there was someone living in it. Then we noticed the for sale sign. It was taken care of, just sad to see it is for sale again. Then we came home.

Today I went with my best friend shopping for her daughters birthday on Sunday.I had a great time shopping with her and her baby. Then her husband met up with us and we all at lunch. It was nice being with my best friend, and having a little break away from my kids while my parents watched them.

Then tonight I went over to my in-laws house, of course Josh's parents house. They haven't been able to see their grand kids in two years. So, the kids were completely excited to see them. We had a great time hanging out with them tonight. Elizabeth was able to get her birthday gift from them, and then they gave me a mothers day present to open. Michael then spent the night with them, and I will pick him up in the morning.

Now it is time to go to bed, I am soo.. tired. I will try to add a few pictures up tomorrow. Still, thinking, loving and missing my husband as we travel around the town that we met.

Just wanted to let you know...

DAY 78- (Really June 3rd, 2010)

For all of you that do read my blog every night, this is just going to be a very quick one. I just wanted to let you know that I will let you know tomorrow night, how our trip home to Washington State from Oregon went. We got in late tonight, and I automatically had homework to do. Until then, have a great night!

Saying Goodbyes, last night in Oregon....

DAY 77-

It was two years since I was last able to come to Grants Pass, Oregon, the town in which I was born. It was two years ago when we were here, right before we moved from Washington State to Maryland. And now we live in Colorado. We finally, were able to come and see our family members in Oregon, and now it's the last night and we are leaving tomorrow. This time has gone by very fast. I have enjoyed every minute visiting with my brother, sister in law, niece, nephew, Grandma, and My Aunt Vades (my moms sister). It is sad that we don't know when we will see these family members again. We will cherish every great memory that we have made in the last few days with our family, and hold these memories in our hearts when we think of them.

Today on our final day we were able to go and see my 86 year old Grandma (my dad's mom.) We had a great, short visit today today. We weren't able to stay long because the kids were starting to act up. She is getting older now, and so it is harder for her to be around kids to long. We were able to get some great pictures with my grandma and I, my dad and her, and then the kids and my dad and I. Then it was time to say goodbye, until next time...

After we left my Grandmas house, we drove up to see my brother and his family for a little while. All of the cousins played toys while the adults were visiting. Johnathan was singing again today. Then it was time to say goodbye, until next time.

We then all headed to a Mexican Restaurant to meet up with my Aunt Vades (my mom's sister). My Parents, the kids, My Aunt Vades and I all ate Mexican food for dinner. It was a very nice Visit with my Aunt. I'm glad we were able to spend a little more time with my Aunt since the other day. She is my moms only sister. After we visited a little while during dinner, and ate our great food it was time to leave. I drove my Aunts vehicle to her house. It was nice having the little bit of extra time to visit with my Aunt. And I usually don't drive for anyone but my three kids. So, my Aunt should feel special, lol. My mom and I then said goodbye, until next time.

It has been a great trip to Oregon. I'm going to miss all of my family here, but I know that we will be back to see everyone. Until then, I will hold these great memories to remember until next time....

We went to visit my brother and his family today....

DAY 76- (Really, June 1st, 2010)



Today my parents and I went out to eat Brunch with the kids. Then we went out to see my brother. The kids and I haven't seen him and his family in two years. Last time we saw him was before the kids and I moved from Washington, 2 years ago.

We had a great visit at their house today. The kids played, and Johnathan made up his own song. It was the, "I'm bad, your bad song". It was so cute! Then my niece, and then Elizabeth were doing a presentation.




The kids all played outside some, and even rode bikes for a few minutes. We were there for a couple of hours. Then we all went out to eat pizza at a place called Abby's. When my parents, the kids and I arrived back at the motel the kids, my dad, and I went swimming. Elizabeth is such a water baby. She is not even the same child when she is in the water. She is not even afraid and wants to jump right in. One time she got out of the pool, and was trying to do a swimmers position jump in the pool. I had to stop her. She is just not scared of the water, not like me at that age. Johnathan was to afraid, and didn't want in the pool. Michael played some in the pool, but mainly by himself.

This trip is going by fast here in Oregon. I just hope our entire vacation doesn't go by fast. I just don't want the vacation to go by fast where the kids and I are back home not around the family anymore. Until then, just enjoying every minute, and thinking of and missing my handsome husband.

Memorial Day...

This is me pointing to the room I was born in

DAY 75-

This day is to remember all of those Soldiers, and other Men and Women that fought and died for Our Freedom. We Remember them, and we Thank them for Losing their lives for our Country. It is such a sad touching thing. There are families and friends that still love, and miss these Men and Women, and they are also in our Thoughts And Prayers.

We will never forget these Men and Women who lost their lives, fighting for our Freedom, that is what today is about.

Today is also a day to think about those Men and Women in any Branch of Service that are Currently deployed fighting for Our Country. Please keep all of these men and women in your Thoughts and Prayers, and that all of these Men and Women Return to Us Safely. No matter if it is Memorial day, or not, please thank these men in Women in Uniform for for fighting for our Country and giving us the Freedom that we have. If your buying coffee, buy them one. If your buying lunch, pay for theirs. You wouldn't have the freedom that you have to buy those items if it wasn't for them.

My husband was especially in my thoughts and Prayers today. I'm very Proud to be his Wife. He is an Amazing husband, father and Soldier. I'm very Proud of Him. This is the 4th time that he has been deployed, fighting for the freedom for our Country, and giving up things, and family at home in order to help Protect our Country. Thank you Josh, we love and miss you a whole lot, and we cannot wait to see you again. We are very Proud of you Josh!

Today, the kids and I drove around with my Parents, in Grants Pass, Oregon. In the town in which I was born. We drove by the hospital that I was born at. It is closed now, but we got pictures of me outside of the hospital in front, and then in the back of the hospital in which I was really born. Probably next time I make it here, then it will be torn down.

We also got to see my Aunt Vades today. I had a great time visiting her. It has been over 2 years since I have been able to see her. I can't wait to go and see her again.

It was a great day today, besides the kids are being really fussy, fighting and throwing temper tantrums. I hope they get better soon. Enjoying our vacation away from home, but still thinking about my husband. I can't wait to see the man that I love so dearly, again in the next few months!